i cant ever trust anyone. no one living in this world is trustworthy. i hate it, seriously i do. its like the world's tumbling down on me. i really cannot take it. serious. hais this few days is practically living hell. i really am at my wits end. she's totally out of control. i can only pray, really, really hard. who do i confide in? i seriously lost my faith in humans. not even my kin can be trusted absolutely nobody. i really wonder why God puts me through all this. i dun think i can take this anymore. i know that God has a reason for doing all this but i am afraid i cannot take all this.

my only confidiant is God. really. hais i dunno how to put it but it is just so freakish. no one, absolutely nobody can be trusted. and i'm going for water baptism this sunday. no one will ever understand how terrible i feel. its like even your kin can betray you. i am really at my wits end of knowing what to do with her. i've had enough. i'm on the verge of giving up. why must God put me through all this stuff when i am taking my water baptism on sunday? is this some sort of a test? i really dunno.

people think they understand me but they dun. no one does. people tagging at stacy's blog. please seriously get a life. i dun understand the reason of your doing these crap but no matter what just stop that crap. it really sucks. if you really do hate me for whatever i said and you want to tag at my board, feel free to do so but seriously how does tagging at people's blog make you feel? happy?

what else can i do? just carry on living my life and act like everything's okay. it's difficult. i can choose to put on a false front and act like everything is okay but i cant. the harshness of reality bites. it hurts. it sucks. especially when you are hurt by someone you really love.

i'm seriously in a terrible mood these few days, no one will understand, no one ever does.

i have given up on this world, entirely.