ahhs. kae dis is gonna be a long post. hahas same starting as the other 1.
i'm sorta getting quite sick of my life. i realised tat i'm doing the same thing everydae,living my life for the sake of living it.enough of dis. seriously. maybe its just life, every1 will face dis phase ? but i'm not about to sit and juz live my life without any meaning. todae i watched the show about Jesus dying on the cross and it struck me how much i was loved by him. he did no wrong and yet he died on the cross for our sins . for us .each and every1.each week i go up for alter call and after tat its juz back to my old and usual life. nopes no more of dis. i wanna lead a life tat shines for christ. wads my point in living? i cant waste everydae of my life juz sitting ard,enjoying it,slacking,wasting it away. i'm gonna change . i m not going to be bothered and let how others think affect how i am . i dun live for people, i live for God. anws, i've juz realised tat i've wasted so much of my time trying to enjoy myself, fit in or wadeva it might be. it just has gotta stop.i wanna lead a changed life tat will shine for Christ. i dun wanna pass each dae doing nothing but wasting it. u might think wad i'm writing is some crappy philosophy or wadeva but i dun care. not tat i'm not going to care if people critisise me or something but i juz wanna lead a life which i think is right in God's eyes. when i was being prayed for on sunday it was juz soso real laureen told me not to let wrong thoughts entertain me tat studying was nerdy or seeking the love of others cos the person's love i shud seek is God. kae i dunnoe how to re-write it but the meaning's dere. i must not be too caught up trying to think of wad others think of me or whatsoever. hahs its going to be so difficult but i reali pray tat God will help me thru' it. sometimes its reali so difficult but well..i muz not give up./surrendering everything/all dis few wks prayers/everything tats happening/God's word thru' people, all dis juz falls into place dis past few weeks. when i reali look back i can reali see how it juz all falls into place.i remember ps. stanley saying on sunday when he prayed for me when i was slain . dis commitment sealed on 9 april 2006 . yepps hope to be able to keep to it . reali gonna lead a life tat shines for Jesus:)
awws i'm just into chocos dis few daes not onli chocos but all sort of foods am i juz avoiding reality or something? i dunnoe but with a new goal in life, all dis has to stop . hahas and it will, i m sure of tat.dere's juz something missing in my life, an emptiness and i noe tat onli jesus can fill it.
God, see me thru and help me:) without your help i cant do it.
anws brina thks for listening to me talk and crap all todae,so long never talk to u bout stuffs.hahas x)) yeahs .thks for tat listening ear:)
o did i mention about how much i miss 1graceoh`five? i reali do. dey were fantastic.enjoyed every single min of times den.now? life's like so incomplete.haiis but i have to reconise the fact tat i m not supposed to live for others rite? not for myself but christ.hahs. yepps. but i reali missed those times when we used to hang out at shopping centres after school. those memories wil never be forgotten. now? i dunnoe.. i remmembered how hard we cried when we knew about the streaming but i feel tat seeing each other each dae, we have forgotten about it and taken hings for granted.it was a point we made to go out at least a dae in a wk. wasn't it? hais. its okae. i reali need the love of God to love others, its juz so dificult.